Thank God for grantin me this moment of clarity...My mind hurts sooo badly right now,I am in love with him and my heart is breaking. Eyes watering uncontrolably, blinding me I cannot see. Emotions haywire because he's all I want to need...Drinking myself into a prison trying to be free.. I want to be free...To live without you in my thoughts my thoughts constantly. Thoughts of you overtaking me and consuming my day. Wishing you would love me and only me. Knowing this will never be a reality. Sticking around waiting for this to materialize, For feelings to be conjured up but realizing it'd all be a lie....
