Soo last night @ mmmm bout 6 am I couldn't sleep... Well actually I was sick yesterday so I had been sleep since 930, 10 o'clock so I just woke up... Anywho I was looking @ statuses online and I saw one that confirmed something I knew was coming down the pipes for a while... (Long story short) this guy that liked me and I liked as well basically is talking to someone else now... And with him when he puts stuff like that out there, its serious not play play... At first my feelings were hurt!
Then I realized that I was the one that stopped the negotiations for a relationship... I was all like aww I'm not ready, aww I don't wanna hurt you when really I didn't want to be hurt... I was being selfish, because I wanted to do ME, when I could have doing US... Its the whole "What you want might make you cry, and what you need might pass you by if you don't catch it..." In retrospect it looks like I messed up, but I chalk it up as if it's meant to be it will be... Maybe, but this is how I was feelin @ 6 am...
I knew I'd miss my train someday
It hurts my heart to see you go this way
I did u wrong and I know for a fact
I shoud have hopped on when I had the chance
Reminds me of when I used to miss the bus
I fooled around knowing you would leave the station
Knowing fully well that the time of departure was upon me
Scrambling at the last minute tryna gather up my things
The baggage was too heavy I wanted to let go of it
Needed to lighten my load, but I couldn't sort out my shi*
At first I walked steadily, then I broke into a jog
Slowed down again, bags weighing me down
I made it the the station but alas to my dismay
I made it just in time to see you pulling away
And now I'm filled with regret turning back the hands of time
If I had left 5 mins earlier... the thought weighing on my mind
I'm the only one to blame because life has its schedule
And if you don't adhere, you'll be eating the dust
Sittin here salty as they come, head in my hands
The voice in the back of head echoes the word DAMN...
