Laid up in the bed...

So right now I'm having some issues in life! Man I'm just in the midst of a really big transition as far as being a more responsible adult, deciding whether or not I should move out of my parents crib, tryna go to school, tryna find a job, paying bills, gettin my credit str8, preparing for my husband to find me, tryna find out what I wanna be.... It's really easy but yet I seem to be finding it soooo hard rite now. I keep trying to find things to help me out in this move, but NOTHING is working @ all. I'm really in a place to where it could be worse, but it is pretty bad rite now. I won't complain tho because its pretty much bad for everyone in a way right now. I just need help, and not just to get my mind off of my problems by running away. I need help to turn my situation around, to pick me up off of my tail because I've fallen. This is definitely a humbling experience for me in many
ways. Its time to get rid of the pride, selfishness and childish things in my life. It has helped me to fully realize how much my people really love me and will hold me down, and what work I still have to do within myself to keep focus on what is important. No job, money, man, sex, nothing is going to get me thru this. I've been surviving on little to no money with the help of my parents, brother, grandmother, my aunt, and my bff... I just can't live this way any longer. I got too much get up and get out to be sittin on my tail @ home anymore. Its just reallly discouraging when you have been looking for a job for almost 2 months 2 be told no, or that u have 2 much experience. I just want to be happy, and do what makes me happy. I've almost forgotten what makes me happy at times. I'm nowhere near depressed, but if I just sit around and do nothing then my problems could easily consume me
But I am too strong for that. I was built for hardship, trials and tribulation. I can weather this storm in my life and I will make it out a better person. So again I can't run away or hide from these things, I must face them with the strength I know that I have inside and press on... I'm sayin a whole that u already know, but simply put I need your help and I need it badly. The thing is that you know exactly what I need and ur alwayz on time so umma just be patient and wait it out while minimizing distractions, because I need to focus on you and not just myself. Lord I just need some help!
Sincerly,
Marshay.