Getting to know ME: *Raw*

So every so often Imma post different poetry, song lyrics and stuff lettin y'all get to know ME a lil' bit better. So here goes my first getting to know me post....

I wrote this sooooo long ago I don't remember when! I was going thru some things @ this point in my life and I was definitely in depression mode...Over a no good fool. Well I've gotten over this situation, and going thru that only made me stronger and know what to avoid in the future. Read and enjoy!

*RAW*
I feel like I have nothing inside to turn to. So I go outside of me and it hurts to.. Now I'm on empty, feelin' blank like a fresh sheet of paper. Or like a gun with no bullets just clicking away..

Cuz ever since we agreed to be thru and ever since I continued to allow my body to be used.. I still can't help but to find my thoughts leading to u.. Can't imagine myself callin' nobody else my baby. Having emotional breakdowns wishing your love would save me.. From this heartbreak that I endure continually, Not being able to find my voice to speak..

The worst part is knowing that my love was given freely. Like there was no cost involved, just givin' u all of me. Not appreciating the value of what I possessed. So why would I expect u to protect your newly inherited wealth? Instead it was thrown away, Like trash from a party on yesterday. Ingored in a way that caused me to question, Do I have what it takes to be anyone's selection?

The part of me that I gave was my very essence. Going outta my way, treating u special. Giving giving giving until there's nothing left. Letting so much go I have none for myself. Feeling that I'm worthless like in life, I'm out of place. Nothing more to offer, no more than a pretty face. The different emotions ranging from Love to Hate. The extremes felt so often because there's a thin line between. The burn of where my heart used to be, b4 I took it and offered it to u with this plea.. For u to love me I beg u please!

To which u declined and that's why my heart is broken in pieces. And the jagged shards are in ur hand waiting for someone to retrieve them. The pain involved in this thing is trying to put me back together. Finding a solution to this problem feels like a never. Because there were always pieces missing from the beginning. The pieces I need to begin to mend me.

Now there are even more, because when it rains it pours. And on my soul it rained and the flood carried away more.. And these are the reasons why I feel *RAW*