Getting to know ME: *Raw*

So every so often Imma post different poetry, song lyrics and stuff lettin y'all get to know ME a lil' bit better. So here goes my first getting to know me post....

I wrote this sooooo long ago I don't remember when! I was going thru some things @ this point in my life and I was definitely in depression mode...Over a no good fool. Well I've gotten over this situation, and going thru that only made me stronger and know what to avoid in the future. Read and enjoy!

*RAW*
I feel like I have nothing inside to turn to. So I go outside of me and it hurts to.. Now I'm on empty, feelin' blank like a fresh sheet of paper. Or like a gun with no bullets just clicking away..

Cuz ever since we agreed to be thru and ever since I continued to allow my body to be used.. I still can't help but to find my thoughts leading to u.. Can't imagine myself callin' nobody else my baby. Having emotional breakdowns wishing your love would save me.. From this heartbreak that I endure continually, Not being able to find my voice to speak..

The worst part is knowing that my love was given freely. Like there was no cost involved, just givin' u all of me. Not appreciating the value of what I possessed. So why would I expect u to protect your newly inherited wealth? Instead it was thrown away, Like trash from a party on yesterday. Ingored in a way that caused me to question, Do I have what it takes to be anyone's selection?

The part of me that I gave was my very essence. Going outta my way, treating u special. Giving giving giving until there's nothing left. Letting so much go I have none for myself. Feeling that I'm worthless like in life, I'm out of place. Nothing more to offer, no more than a pretty face. The different emotions ranging from Love to Hate. The extremes felt so often because there's a thin line between. The burn of where my heart used to be, b4 I took it and offered it to u with this plea.. For u to love me I beg u please!

To which u declined and that's why my heart is broken in pieces. And the jagged shards are in ur hand waiting for someone to retrieve them. The pain involved in this thing is trying to put me back together. Finding a solution to this problem feels like a never. Because there were always pieces missing from the beginning. The pieces I need to begin to mend me.

Now there are even more, because when it rains it pours. And on my soul it rained and the flood carried away more.. And these are the reasons why I feel *RAW*

My Addiction: Blueprint 3!!!

OKKKKKKK! So y'all may not know this, but Jay-Z is my BOY!!! I love this man his swagger, his business sense, just everything about him! I am certainly a STAN for Jay! So if you know his discography, you know that he has a couple of classics under his belt, "Reasonable Doubt" and "The Blueprint" to be exact. Well just relax your mind and let your conciense be free because he's coming at you with "Blueprint 3"!!!! The anticipated release date is December 3rd, the day before his birthday. He's expected to be working with Kanye of course amongst others.

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$0 D0p3niqu3: I stay fre$h

Yes Yes Yes I got the shoes!!! YEah for me! They are so hottt! I also crafted an outfit @ the last minute because I could'nt help but wear it the day after I got the shoes (I alwayz do that) It was kinda impromptu, but it came out pretty good. I should be on a design on a dime show for fashion because total w/ the shoes the outfit was $120 except the accessories because it was stuff I had already, with the exception on the scarf, which I got from the best place on earth, TARGET!!!! Check me out yoo and peep the make-up, I kinda made up the lip thing @ the last minute....



Bestie in the background, GUCCI! See her blog!!!

What you know about that!: T.I. clothing line!

As reported by Necole Bitchie, Atlanta bred hip-hop artist T.I. is going to be starting a clothing line amongst other projects. The line is going to be called AKOO (A King Of Oneself) and is set to be revealed at the end of the year. His sixth studio album "Paper Trail" is supposed to be coming out on September 30th. The thing that had me cracking up was his opinion of one that wears his clothing and still can't get the ladies....(lol) read below:

"Fly, Upscale, and Flashy. For the young and sexy or the old and rich. Either way, if you can not provide Swag for yourself, you just holla at me and I will appoint some to you. You buy the clothes and the swags on me. If you find yourself wearing some Akoo and the chick who you wit don’t like it, I’ll replace her with one who does.That’s my personal guarantee. If you can not find a chick in these clothes right here, there is something terribly wrong with you"


Full Story HERE

You done lost your Motha*bleepin* mind!!!: 50 Cent

Read what 50 cent had to say about Jay-Z not being known until he married Beyonce! Is this dude serious?!?! Or does he do this just to get a reaction like this? lol. He like the kid with the glasses and highwaters that wants to be picked for dodgeball, but nobody wants to pick him! Get him outta here!!!
50 Cent is out of his mind!!!

My Addiction!: M.I.A. is the bomb...

"Paper Planes" by M.I.A.

I am reallly reallly diggin this song!!! I love it because it's sooo different. It's so dope that they used it for the "Swagger like us" sample. M.I.A. is the shizznit, Listen to her song "Hussel" feat Afrikan Boy, it's that hot fire like Dylan on Chappelle show!!

Kicks and Giggles (ROTFL)!: Affion is a fool!

Just A lil' sumthin for you to get your ROTFL (rolling on the floor laughing) on!! This is Affion Crockett from Wildin' Out (MTV) Check out his YouTube Channel and SUBSCRIBE!!!!!

$0 D0p3niqu3!: OMG I want these shoes!!!

Ok I'm bored so imma blog for y'all... Man I just gotta show y'all some things that are hott to me! First and foremost I'll start by saying that I am not a tennis shoes and tees type of chick. Nor am I a stillettos and dresses type... I'm kinda like a hybrid of these types. I switch up the style, keep it unpredictable, sharp, sexy, swaggnasty, etc etc. I recently saw these sneakers @ the mall and I tested positive for head-over-heels-itis!! They are Sooooo dope to me I just gotta go cop these!!! 2mrw!!! Peep the chain on the back!!!! They're supposed to be comin out with a shirt to match them, kinda like they did for the AF1's a couple years back...



Soooo now we must find an outfit to accompany these oh sooo hot shoes!!!!

Maybe pair it up with this.....

Where do I buy this stuff????

No Obama shirts @ the polls!!!

So on with the American way which is basically making anything constitutional have a loop-hole to where it's no longer a right that is legal..... What right is that you ask? FREE-SPEECH is what it is. According to reports by many people out there, No Obama shirts, pins or other paraphenalia is permitted when you go to vote on election day. That's right! And why might you ask? Because the Government does'nt want anyone to be influenced by the clothing or advertisement by another person as to who they are going to vote for. Read the post below, which is not necessarily my opinion, but I do agree that there is definitely emphasis on OBAMA shirts because I've not heard of one person rockin McCain (or McClain as some ppl call him G.L. lol) gear @ ALL!

I mean, but America as a whole can't take it when a person feels very strongly about a subject, nevertheless a black man becoming president. Take for instance the Ludacris joint "Politics" . Obama caught mad flack for the way someone else was showing their support of him, so much so that he had to say he had nothing to do with it... Crazy do'h. *shaking my head* WELL! All I got to say about it is Obama '08 bruh and I'm out!


"PLEASE ADVISE EVERYONE YOU KNOW THAT THEY ABSOLUTELY CAN NOT GO TO THE POLLS WEARING ANY OBAMA SHIRTS, PINS OR HATS. IT IS AGAINST THE LAW AND WILL BE GROUNDS TO HAVE THE POLLING OFFICIALS TO TURN YOU AWAY.

THAT IS CONSIDERED CAMPAIGNING AND NO ONE CAN CAMPAIGN WITHIN X AMOUNT OF FEET TO THE POLLS. THEY ARE BANKING ON US BEING EXCITED AND NOT BEING AWARE OF THIS LONG STANDING LAW THAT YOU CAN BET WILL BE ENFORCED THIS YEAR!

THEY ARE BANKING THAT IF YOU ARE TURNED AWAY YOU WILL NOT GO HOME AND CHANGE YOUR CLOTHES. PLEASE JUST DON'T WEAR OBAMA GEAR OF ANY SORTS TO THE POLLS!! PLEASE SHARE THIS INFORMATION."

My first post for y'all!

Now this is not really my first blog on a website, just my first here... Lemme introduce myself, my name is Marshay aka ShayB aka ShaybeRae aka Catwoman (don't you wanna know the story behing that!) aka Rae' Wil aka a whole lotta other stuff. They say it ain't what they call you, it's what you answer to that matters and those are some of my aliases lol I'm 22 yrs. old and I have an intrests in journalism, photography, fashion design, plus-size modeling,and anything media related in a nutshell. I am currently into reading blogs blogs blogs and more blogs! Entertainment, music, fashion and pretty much anything else that humors me. So you will see YouTube clips, Links to other blogs and whatever tickles MY fancy because it's my DAMN BLOG!!! So read on baby!

Sooo I'm on HipHopDx.com (a place that has many many many fabulous reviews and editorials) and they had these pants showcased in the fashion section also known as TheEvilCollector.com. The pants are a fully functional keyboard that can be used instead of the keyboard on your computer, because you're too good to use that are'nt you!

Computer Keyboard Pants!!!!