2.26.2009
2.25.2009
Nature is beautiful!
2.22.2009
Just My Thoughts: Everything Happens For a Reason...
I for one am a person that tries not to take things for granted. The little things in life are the prelude to your life's compilation. They are the bricks that build the house. It all comes together and creates a much larger picture... That's why when things happen like last night my IGNITION KEY and ONLY the ignition got lost, I don't trip all like that. God allows certain things to happen or not happen ultimately for your greater good. Even through my own irresponsibilty and neglect, things work out in my favor. That's the beautiful part of it. The bad or ugly part is that sometimes that can leave room for one to push the envelope continually.... But if you develop the right mindset then you won't even wanna chance it... But back to my original point. Don't take every bad thing that happens to you as a negative. In the end it is working itself out to benefit either yourself or others
and that is ultimately the good thing that God is trying to get out of it... That's my sunday sermon, with my not going to church 3wks in a row self!!!!! Lol Peace out yo!
2.21.2009
Put on 4 My City: Mirrorlove Productions, T.I. Swagger like us tour!
SWAGGA LIKE US TOUR invades Columbus,Ohio from L Carter on Vimeo.
2.18.2009
Countdown from 10!
2/17/09
10 Things you wish you could say to ten different people
1. YOU are not hot shit...SERIOUSLY! There are very few ppl I can say that I can't stand and you are one of them!
2. I feel like you have a listening problem. U don't listen and internalize things long enough before you speak. Work on it!
3. I am so much better for the experience that we had together. Even though you could have KILLED me with the emotional havoc I endured, I am so much stronger and forgive you and thank you for the pain...
4. You are a FUCKING dawg azz liar and I know your game. I had a lapse of judgement. Don't expect it to happen again! Thank you!
5. I love you from the bottom of my heart! You are my everything! MY EVERYTHING!!! YOU MEAN THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE TO ME! I WOULD MOVE HEAVEN AND EARTH FOR YOU AND I'M SOOOOOO PROUD OF WHAT YOU ARE AND WHAT YOU ARE BECOMING! (For my bruder I can actually say that tho lol)
6. I feel like we are kindred spirits! Like if I believed in past lives, we would have been best friends, lovers, closer than close... I wanna get to know you better I think we'd have something special...
7. Man I fucked up and I wish that I hadn't done what I did with the motives that I had... Forgive ME!
8. I want to spend more time with you. You are so special to me....
9. If I could ever wish for a BIG brother, you would be it! We act alike, think alike, speak alike... I know GOD put you in my life for a reason!
10. I'm sorry if I am not in my place and there for you like I want to be. Distance is the only hidarance and even that isn't a good enough excuse because there's always Facebook lol. I love you this much *spreads arms wide open* to the ends of the earth and wish you the best in life and I will always be there for you. You're my BABY always and forever babygurl!
9 things about me
1. I cuss a whooooooolllleeee lot that's why I like ORBIT! Clean a dirty mouth!
2. PURPLE is my favorite color! I try to avoid buyin purple stuff (eyeshadow, shirts, accesories etc) but I can't help myself. It's soooo beautiful, the walls in my room are purple and brown.
3. I have too many purses, way too many.
4. Capture the moment baby! I love taking pictures, I might post a couple with this entry!
5. I have many nicknames Shayla Staxxx, Mz. Parker, Bubble, ShayBe, Shayberaebaby, ShayRae, Shay, Rae' (my middle name), and so many more... Pick/make one!
6. I don't do heels a lot, but I just got these 4.5's and I want to wear them every day, I mean every day!!!!
7. I strive to alwayz have kind things to say to ppl. I like to push ppl's buttons in a positive way, motivationally. I want to see everyone prosper and do well in their journey that we all call life. If you put good out you will get it back and vice versa!
8. I LOVE CHILDREN! Absolutely positively love them! I look forward to the day that I have my own, until then I will practice on my-birthday-present-niece/nephew to come! Oh, and your children!
9. I love the LORD, nuff said!
8 Ways to win my heart
This one is hard a lil bit I've never had anyone dote over me... Let's try this...
1. Be YOU! The best YOU that YOU can be. Individuality will get you far here...
2. A sense of humor will take you into another stratosphere, keep me laughing...
3. Intelligence is also an A++++ you have my heart if you know more than just what happened last night on Real Chance of Love or whatever is on TV nowadays..
4. Beauty is overrated. Looks are important don't get me wrong, but they can be decieving... I want you to be beautiful inside out..That's a winner!
5. Have a personal relationship with your maker! "Church Boys" lol are a major T.O. A man with the mind of Christ is the man for me!
6. A man that smells GOOT! Aqua Di Gio, Issey Miyake! Armani Code for Men! I wear the women's version so maybe one day we can meet up, ya dig!
7. A sense of style, the individuality piece comes in here. Unique, distinguished, trailblazing, fresh! I hate to this word, but a man that has a certain swag, confidence about himself....
8. Drive! Ambition! Not just aspiriation, but the get up and go to accomplish their goals. I see myself as a driven woman, going places, doing things with myself and I would like for someone to ride wit me, is that you?
7 Things that cross my mind a lot
1. Why is the sky blue?
2. If life is so far then why do roses have thorns? Lmao!
3. God.
4. My singing career.
5. My love life.
6. My niece/nephew to come.
7. How much I love MY DADDY! (Daddy's girl? YES!)
6 Things I do before I go to sleep
1. Talk to ppl on BBM, Yahoo IM, Twitter, FB and stay up longer than I should...
2. Wash my face, gotta moisturize my situation to preserve my sexy!
3. Take off allllll of my clothes, I like to sleep nakey...
4. Think of things to write about... My memopad on the bb is FULL...
5. Listen to music sometimes on the zuney zune...I love falling asleep and waking up to Raheem DeVaughn's voice!
6. I BARELY watch tv, but if I do I like watching crime shows, First 48, The Wire, or The Office dvd
5 People I couldn't live without
1. GOD/JESUS
2. DADDY and MOMMY
3. My brother and cousins (they're like my sisters really)
4. My Aunt Niecy
5. My GRANDMOTHERS
4 Things I am wearing right now-11:01pm
1. Leggings
2. Slouchy gray boots
3. Long hoodie
4. My lip ring
3 Songs that fit my life perfectly(right now)
1. Mary J. Blige- My Life
2. Jay-Z- Party Life
3. Raheem DeVaughn- Prototype!
(I'm tryna decide if I like the Andre 3k version or Jazmine Sullivan version better!)
2 Things I want to do before I die
1. Go to the Barbados and get my great grandmother's birth records.
2. Get married and have kids and fufill my God-given purpose, entertaining you suckas. Lol.
1 Confession
Awww damn y'all put me on the spot with that one.... Umm well I have "affection" issues...I use my words to describe my feelings really well, but when it comes down to me and men, I guess I just don't want to let my guards down. ASK about ME lol. It's bad. I'm trying to make improvements, I say I'm being careful... You can't let ur defenses down for just anyone!!! Waiting on the right one...
2.13.2009
Just My Thoughts: Last time...
I'm tip-toeing on a dangerous line
Thinking we could do this one more time
Our history marred by infidelity, tainted, rotten the core
Yet and still I keep going back for more more more
Adapting a dangerous mindset
That sex is just sex
When in reality its much more complex
I'm sharing my body with you
Mind and soul too
Our energy coming together full force
Reasons why sexing should mean much more
Our souls interwined, tangled up to say the least
Why windows get busted out, gotta call the police
When things go south because my pride is involved
Why u should twice before tryna get in my draws
An emotional wreck, I let you have a piece of me
Pretending I could push feelings aside, how foolish of me
In turn u use them creating an unfair advantage
Cuz u don't give a damn, ur attitude raw and savage
Lemme keep a cool head though it aint all on you
Because provebial wisdom shows that in the pudding is the proof
I wasn't too blind not to know the truth
Hindsight 20/20 I already KNOW you
I aint warming no jail bench on some b.s.
I don't need none of the drama, NONE of the stress
Smartened up I'm using the past as my guide
That's why last time REALLY was the last time
2.05.2009
YOU KNOW I usually don't do this, but uh....KEEP THE PARTY GOIN!! 25 *RANDOM* thangs about the dark and lovely DIVA ShayBE!
YES I FELL INTO THE TRAP..... lol
Yo this is the dark and lovely diva BeShayBE! This is MY 25 random things list and if you know me, you know I gotta be different! Peep 25 random things BeShayBE style!
1. I'm addicted to Twitter! I love twitting!
2. Yo, two things I most certainly will not be caught without are GUM and LIPGLOSS! Ever! And all the kids @ church know I got GUM on deck, they be checkin for me after church lol. And yes all of that was in my purse, no lie!
3. I AM A SCENT WHORE! I love perfume! Fav right now is Escada Moon Sparkle and Armani Code for women! No! Unforgivable woman and Juicy Couture! No! Victoria's Secret desire! Very Sexy 1 or 2!! Too much lmao!!
4. *I'm a part-time scripper and I do hair! You can't hurt me as long as I'm wearing these Jamaican colors! I'm made outta laffy tafffy! My suit so tight I been ready to fcuk! I'm the Jaugernaut BIIIIIIIITTTTTCCCCCHHHHH! *Dew YEW love me? Could YEW learn to love me? I'm OLG GREG! You've loved me, you've seen me you've known me! I'm OLD GREG! I have a Mangina, gina, gina, gina!!! *If you get killed and you get killed by a tiger and you get killed by a tiger in the zoo, that must be GOD'S will for your life! I wish a muthfugga would! This cage right here nugga, this cage right here nugga! I wish a muthfugga would!!! *I'm the man and you know that! I'm the one in the middle!!!! If you know where any of these quotes came from, put it in your comment!
5. I find ways to excercise my freedom in being D0p3niqu3 by using words that ppl don't say anymore, or say in OHIO, like something is BOMB not the bomb, or BOSS, like those shoulder pads are BOSS or that perm is BOSS etc etc.
6. *I give you permission to skip this one because I started going off on a tangent lol*I can't stand a person that thinks they are better than anyone else!!! That is THE only thing that really rocks my boat! They think they know everybody and everything, when YOU probably know just as much, if not MORE... And alsoPPL that try 2 front on others... Me NO-likey..
P.S. I also am an advocate for the truth. Nothing is worse than a liar because that person lives a lifestyle shrouded by the last lie they told... Who can keep up with that ish? And to lie to the ppl that LOVE you and will always to your last breath and beyond? Senseless! Just keep it TRILL!!!!!
7. I wanted to be a Russian interpreter when I was in middle school, my Uncle Michael said black ppl don't live in Russia NIGGA! (Just in case you did'nt know, he's CRAZY). He was like them Dayum Mexicans is takin over, you need to learn that! I started taking Spanish in HS and I don't remember much of any of it...SMH lol
8. Frappicuino is crack in a cup, it joins the ranks of Chipotle, Zuppa soup from Olive Garden, Chicken and wild rice soup from Panera, Raising Canes chicken fingers, Snickers with almonds, Pizza Uno's pizza skins and Reesch's donuts... I sound fat as hell now lol, dang!
9. I enjoy baking, I can actually cook I just don't get to do it much. I cook at Gloria's all the time, come see us! $5.00 per person!! We tryna get PAID IN FULL!
10. I have a problem applying myself to fullest of my potential. Laziness and procrastination are vices that I fight daily!
11. My cousin had a dream that I lost 20 lbs and became an underwear model, not knowing that I secretly desire to be an underwear model! Lol (I play too much)
12. I STAN for anything in my CITY that has substance, quality and is a cut above the rest! Shouts out to Cap City Connections, DJ Krate Digga, The Usual Suspects Crew, Mirrorlove Productions, Fly U, Fly Paper, The Nice Guy Movement... I plan on having y'all do the same for ME, someday!
13. I don't watch a lot of TV @ all. You don't wanna ask me what happened on America's best dance crew because I aint seen it lol. I watch crime shows mostly, I'm more of a reader. Oh and music lover, ahhh yes! Jay-Z, Kid CuDi, Raheem DeVaughn, Eric Roberson, Outkast, Marsha Ambrosious, Fred Hammond, Colin Munroe, 88-Keys, and too many more take me away!
14. Speaking of reading, I've been known to finish a 500+ pg book in 1-2 days. Reading is fundamental! My vocabulary can support this claim. That is also why I'm a good writer.
15. I have a website with my writing on it... If you wanna see it send me a msg!*whispers* BeShayBE.com.... And I need a graphic designer to help me out!!
16. I am addicted to my BB! I'm typing on it now lol. BBM me! Once u get a CrackBerry and understand ALL that it can do, you will understand why the world was created...Marinate on that...lol
17. I am thinking about getting my lip pierced and am getting 2 tattoos... A crown on my wrist and GOD IS LOVE on the other...Yeah I can live with that! I will not fall into the tramp stamp line or get anything stupid tatted on my chest like MY OWN DAMN NAME or paw prints.... NO offense lol
18. I am a singer. Yes I can say that now I have a slightly elevated sense of confidence, due to encouragement from various sources. I have very very very intense stage fright, I SWEAT like a whore in church, like bad which is weird because I'm confident in most other areas...
19. I'm scared to fall in love. Lions, Tigers, Bears is a TRUE story to me!! I don't like to not be in control. When I'm thru with you I'm thru, and if I want something I go after it! Love is a challenge to me and because I know the true definition, I can't continue to SETTLE for anything less and put my ALL into it. Compromising for inferiority is not the name of the game anymore baby!
20. I like to use CAPITALIZATION for emphasis, ! marks because I'm always excited and the phrase lol is used very heavily in my text msgs, twits etc. I guess it's because I'm always laughin and all lol.
21. I LOVE taking pictures, my motto is capture the moment baby! And I have soooo many moments captured!
22. I like looking up quotes! I have had a love affair with words 4ever and won't give up on it ANYtime soon! In addition to that I like to use larger words when I know that I can use words with less syllables as to not confuse y'all simps... Lol
“Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.”
23. If I did'nt have JESUS CHRIST in my life, I would'nt be alive today or in my right frame of mind. I thank God that my parents and family are in the church otherwise I dunno where I'd be...
24. I like to converse with ppl. I like to meet new ppl and get inside their mind and see what's goin on. I have lots of associates and ppl that I count dear to me. Cousins that are pretty much sisters, close friends that are family and the ppl I communicate with on a regular basis are a pretty big deal to me. So if I talk to you regularly or tell you I miss you or that you crossed my mind, I really mean it...Also if I'm really really really mean to you *cough**cough**cough**cough* (Rashaun!)*cough**cough**cough* (MARISA)*pounds chest* whew I got something stuck in my throat!! *cough* *cough* (Gloria)*cough*, that means I'll love you 4ever lol lol
Last and most importantly *sexxxy red voice*(lol)
25. I anticipate that day that I say I DO to the man I'm gonna love for the rest of my life. My parents have been married going on 22 years. Until then I'm choosing to live a lifestyle of celibacy. I'm so damn serious y'all, I MUST have someone to fall in love with my beautiful mind over my beautiful body lol etc... That shit gets BO-ring! So although it may be hard, I gotta change what I'm doing to get different results, unless I like being heartbroken which I don't!!!
*Whew*Well thanks for checkin in on me y'all! You gotta do yours now!!! :>p
*BONUS*5 Fav Movies
1. Coming to America
2. Old School
3.Saw 1-5
4.THE WIRE OMG I LOVE THIS DAYUM SHOW SO MUCH I KNOW IT AINT A MOVIE BUT IT'S MY BONUS NUGGA! I'm in need of season 5, who got me on that?
5. The Butterfly Effect
Fav TV shows
Again I don't watch TV all like that so it has 2 be something spectacular to have me enamored lol.
1. What Not To Wear
2. First 48 or any crime show!
3. Intervention!