Just My Thoughts: A Dream Deferred...I think not!

A Dream Deferred by Langston Hughes

What happens to a dream deferred?
Does it dry up like a raisin in the sun?
Or fester like a sore-- And then run?
Does it stink like rotten meat?
Or crust and sugar over-- like a syrupy sweet?
Maybe it just sags like a heavy load.
Or does it explode?

So I have been thinking lately and turning some things over in my mind...

Thinking about my future and purpose in life...

Deep stuff right?

Well while lost in my thoughts, I was reminded of my dreams. What I want to do with my life, who I want to be. Everyone has a picture in their mind of what they wanted to be when they were little. Some know immediately, some take time to mull over the many possibilities because they are infinite... I'm the 2nd person lol. I have so many things that I want to do and have the ability to do, I think damn can one person get this done??? YES I CAN, imma need a tem behind me though, lol. But back to my thoughts!

Basically, I've gotten so tied up in life and tryna make it that I neglected the person that God created me 2 be. My creativity being #1. I thrive on the opportunity to create unique combinations. Whether it be event planning, fashion design, jewelry making, songwriting, poetry, painting, putting things 2gether and making them work, make-up I live for this ish mayne!

I refuse to be my parents and have a job that I despise, just because I gotta have the bills paid. I don't wanna be another person who's dreams and aspirations haunt them because they didn't chase after them. One thing that I am steadily developing is DRIVE, INITIATIVE to get shit done for ME and my future. Mainly because the people you think would be there 2 support you and have your back may fail you sometimes...

Keep checkin back for me I got some heat for y'all later! Holla @ me baby!
Signed Sincerly,
The Dark and Lovely Diva
BeShayBE
*smooches*

Please help ME!!!!

FAM!! I need y'all help for real YO! My poetry is going to be featured on a friend of mines website here shortly...I'm just having a problem selecting the poem I would like to use! Please look over the poems and help me pick one to use!!!!! I need answers by SATURDAY! Thanks for your participation!! Oh yeah you can click on the poetry tag on this post in order to get to the poems or use the links in the poll! Again GRACIAS!

Which Poem Should I select for my feature?!? BeShayBE.com

• Gettin Tired tinyurl.com/GetinTired
• Gettin some things off my chest tinyurl.com/OffChest
• Self Destruction tinyurl.com/SelfDestruction
• He don't know/Change 4 U tinyurl.com/hedontknow tinyurl.com/chg4u

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Nature is beautiful!

I decided since the day was so nice outside that I just hadddddd to take a walk outside! I made my two cousins go with me for company. It was 57 degrees outside, the sun was shining and it just felt good... I have learned to love and connect and appreciate nature and it's beauty. There's a bike trail right behind my house that's goes for like 5 miles or so...Now we didn't walk the trail, but just enough to admire the feeling you get from being surrounded by trees instead of buildings...Serenity and tranquility...So that was day 2 of my workout/physical activity plan. I worked out yesterday for an hour. And walked there which took 10 mins there and back...All in all I can say I had a good uneventful day, oh no I almost 4got, I got an job offer! I just put in for the job yesterday. It does'nt start until March 16th tho...God is good so I should be getting way more offers pretty soon!

Glo ShayB Plug

Just My Thoughts: Everything Happens For a Reason...

I for one am a person that tries not to take things for granted. The little things in life are the prelude to your life's compilation. They are the bricks that build the house. It all comes together and creates a much larger picture... That's why when things happen like last night my IGNITION KEY and ONLY the ignition got lost, I don't trip all like that. God allows certain things to happen or not happen ultimately for your greater good. Even through my own irresponsibilty and neglect, things work out in my favor. That's the beautiful part of it. The bad or ugly part is that sometimes that can leave room for one to push the envelope continually.... But if you develop the right mindset then you won't even wanna chance it... But back to my original point. Don't take every bad thing that happens to you as a negative. In the end it is working itself out to benefit either yourself or others
and that is ultimately the good thing that God is trying to get out of it... That's my sunday sermon, with my not going to church 3wks in a row self!!!!! Lol Peace out yo!

Put on 4 My City: Mirrorlove Productions, T.I. Swagger like us tour!

Please forgive my lateness!!! This is another recording from my friends over @ Mirrorlove Productions. I love nothing more than to seethe people around me thrive, so view the footage and hit up MIRROLOVEPROD.COM why don't ya!

SWAGGA LIKE US TOUR invades Columbus,Ohio from L Carter on Vimeo.

Countdown from 10!

Yo, I stole this list from my new best friend DJ DURL! Holla @ him on his blog http://djdurl.blogspot.com/! He's pretty dope and has some pretty insightful things to say, Certified!

2/17/09

10 Things you wish you could say to ten different people

1. YOU are not hot shit...SERIOUSLY! There are very few ppl I can say that I can't stand and you are one of them!
2. I feel like you have a listening problem. U don't listen and internalize things long enough before you speak. Work on it!
3. I am so much better for the experience that we had together. Even though you could have KILLED me with the emotional havoc I endured, I am so much stronger and forgive you and thank you for the pain...
4. You are a FUCKING dawg azz liar and I know your game. I had a lapse of judgement. Don't expect it to happen again! Thank you!
5. I love you from the bottom of my heart! You are my everything! MY EVERYTHING!!! YOU MEAN THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE TO ME! I WOULD MOVE HEAVEN AND EARTH FOR YOU AND I'M SOOOOOO PROUD OF WHAT YOU ARE AND WHAT YOU ARE BECOMING! (For my bruder I can actually say that tho lol)
6. I feel like we are kindred spirits! Like if I believed in past lives, we would have been best friends, lovers, closer than close... I wanna get to know you better I think we'd have something special...
7. Man I fucked up and I wish that I hadn't done what I did with the motives that I had... Forgive ME!
8. I want to spend more time with you. You are so special to me....
9. If I could ever wish for a BIG brother, you would be it! We act alike, think alike, speak alike... I know GOD put you in my life for a reason!
10. I'm sorry if I am not in my place and there for you like I want to be. Distance is the only hidarance and even that isn't a good enough excuse because there's always Facebook lol. I love you this much *spreads arms wide open* to the ends of the earth and wish you the best in life and I will always be there for you. You're my BABY always and forever babygurl!

9 things about me

1. I cuss a whooooooolllleeee lot that's why I like ORBIT! Clean a dirty mouth!
2. PURPLE is my favorite color! I try to avoid buyin purple stuff (eyeshadow, shirts, accesories etc) but I can't help myself. It's soooo beautiful, the walls in my room are purple and brown.
3. I have too many purses, way too many.
4. Capture the moment baby! I love taking pictures, I might post a couple with this entry!
5. I have many nicknames Shayla Staxxx, Mz. Parker, Bubble, ShayBe, Shayberaebaby, ShayRae, Shay, Rae' (my middle name), and so many more... Pick/make one!
6. I don't do heels a lot, but I just got these 4.5's and I want to wear them every day, I mean every day!!!!
7. I strive to alwayz have kind things to say to ppl. I like to push ppl's buttons in a positive way, motivationally. I want to see everyone prosper and do well in their journey that we all call life. If you put good out you will get it back and vice versa!
8. I LOVE CHILDREN! Absolutely positively love them! I look forward to the day that I have my own, until then I will practice on my-birthday-present-niece/nephew to come! Oh, and your children!
9. I love the LORD, nuff said!

8 Ways to win my heart

This one is hard a lil bit I've never had anyone dote over me... Let's try this...

1. Be YOU! The best YOU that YOU can be. Individuality will get you far here...
2. A sense of humor will take you into another stratosphere, keep me laughing...
3. Intelligence is also an A++++ you have my heart if you know more than just what happened last night on Real Chance of Love or whatever is on TV nowadays..
4. Beauty is overrated. Looks are important don't get me wrong, but they can be decieving... I want you to be beautiful inside out..That's a winner!
5. Have a personal relationship with your maker! "Church Boys" lol are a major T.O. A man with the mind of Christ is the man for me!
6. A man that smells GOOT! Aqua Di Gio, Issey Miyake! Armani Code for Men! I wear the women's version so maybe one day we can meet up, ya dig!
7. A sense of style, the individuality piece comes in here. Unique, distinguished, trailblazing, fresh! I hate to this word, but a man that has a certain swag, confidence about himself....
8. Drive! Ambition! Not just aspiriation, but the get up and go to accomplish their goals. I see myself as a driven woman, going places, doing things with myself and I would like for someone to ride wit me, is that you?

7 Things that cross my mind a lot

1. Why is the sky blue?
2. If life is so far then why do roses have thorns? Lmao!
3. God.
4. My singing career.
5. My love life.
6. My niece/nephew to come.
7. How much I love MY DADDY! (Daddy's girl? YES!)

6 Things I do before I go to sleep

1. Talk to ppl on BBM, Yahoo IM, Twitter, FB and stay up longer than I should...
2. Wash my face, gotta moisturize my situation to preserve my sexy!
3. Take off allllll of my clothes, I like to sleep nakey...
4. Think of things to write about... My memopad on the bb is FULL...
5. Listen to music sometimes on the zuney zune...I love falling asleep and waking up to Raheem DeVaughn's voice!
6. I BARELY watch tv, but if I do I like watching crime shows, First 48, The Wire, or The Office dvd

5 People I couldn't live without

1. GOD/JESUS
2. DADDY and MOMMY
3. My brother and cousins (they're like my sisters really)
4. My Aunt Niecy
5. My GRANDMOTHERS

4 Things I am wearing right now-11:01pm

1. Leggings
2. Slouchy gray boots
3. Long hoodie
4. My lip ring

3 Songs that fit my life perfectly(right now)

1. Mary J. Blige- My Life
2. Jay-Z- Party Life
3. Raheem DeVaughn- Prototype!
(I'm tryna decide if I like the Andre 3k version or Jazmine Sullivan version better!)

2 Things I want to do before I die

1. Go to the Barbados and get my great grandmother's birth records.
2. Get married and have kids and fufill my God-given purpose, entertaining you suckas. Lol.

1 Confession

Awww damn y'all put me on the spot with that one.... Umm well I have "affection" issues...I use my words to describe my feelings really well, but when it comes down to me and men, I guess I just don't want to let my guards down. ASK about ME lol. It's bad. I'm trying to make improvements, I say I'm being careful... You can't let ur defenses down for just anyone!!! Waiting on the right one...